Operation Phoenix Week #10

 Clearly I have missed a few weeks. 

So.....things are going ok still. But, they could be better. While I have still lost a bit of weight every week, I am not losing at the clip I expected. Nor am I at the clip that the PA said. I am nowhere near being "much more than 2-3 lbs a week".

So what's the deal. Well....as usual...I am the problem. 

Some habits are hard to break. Some are not. I was hoping I was past the worst part of this journey, but I am right in the thick of it. I clearly have issues with food. I always turn to food when my stress is high. Guess what, my stress has been high. So, I have not been doing what I should be doing. I have eaten things that I said I wouldn't eat again. I have eaten things things that I said I would only eat down the road, in small doses. I have eaten....too much. So....deep breath. 

I know this journey will take time. But, I alone have to make the decisions to get where I need to be. Yes I have been exercising. Lifting weights and riding my bike. Despite that, nutrition has not been good. So....

Yes, drawing a line YET AGAIN. But, that is the best part about this.....even with a few bad weeks, I am still much further ahead of where I was a few months ago. Right now is time to buckle down and stay buckled down. Right the ship, and continue to learn.

You can say I am hanging in there. I am still down 35 pounds since surgery. I am told that I look good. My clothes fit better. And I can still be better with my choices. That is the good news. So much like the image below.......here I am......

I was pretty hard on myself yesterday, from a mental perspective. I am disappointed in myself for not sticking 100% to the plan. Often taking the easy way out, and doing exactly what I told myself I would not do. Sure, you can eat that....one bite won't hurt. But it does. Because that one bite of whatever I shouldn't have causes a domino effect and turns into multiple bites of what I shouldn't have. That is followed by a poor mindset of "you already ate (whatever) and might as well have another snack". I can't allow myself to do this....again.  I shall prevail.

I am not saying I cannot reach my goal. I am saying that I needed a moment of focus and insight to change my mindset. Today has been great. Simple things like choosing the right thing to eat, and drinking a ton of water have already helped. Honestly, I think not drinking enough water is a major culprit in this. So my intake is up today, and will be a major component of moving forward. 

So no, this post isn't negative. Just information of where I am. I have felt better today after talking out some of the details with Christine. I have been diligently tracking what I have eaten today. Setbacks happen. Whether mental or physical. Instead of allowing myself to sink into self pity, I made a few changes to correct the actions. Now I have to stick with them. 

I did do a Kal-Haven on Sunday. Was good to have Jay along for the ride. Because he hasn't been riding and was on a borrowed bike, he turned back at mile 9. Was a good to see you my friend. Missed you. I pressed on into Gobles, and started to regret my decision. I couldn't hold a high pace (for me). I am sure it has to do with my nutrition, but the cold in the air didn't help either. It was 34 F degrees (0 degrees Celsius) when we started. It was really only touching 50 when I got done. I just rode as hard as I could, tried to press. The last few miles are always the worst part. I didn't really slow down much, just held a steady pace. Still, was much slower than my last ride a few weeks ago. 

All I can do is keep moving forward. As far out as it seems, Barry Roubaix is already getting closer. I know I have a full winter to get ready for 62 miles, but I have to leverage my position everyday. Stick with me friends, we are getting there. 

Frosted Fat Tire Relay Race Recap

 Yes this is a race recap.

Yes this race was the Frosted Fat Tire Relay.

Yes, it was 75 degrees and sunny in October.

Yes the race was rescheduled from February.

No, it was no longer a fat bike race.

No, I am not in shape to be racing. 

Ok, now that I got that out of the way I figured I would give a recap of the race. 

With a 1pm start I got to sleep in for a change. The Fitness Ranch is only about an hour from my house, so I didn't have to get up in the dark. The animals however, they are on a schedule and still had me out of bed at 6:30 am. I was able to take care of them, and get some food in my system early.

I loaded up and headed out around 10am. I got to the Ranch just after 11am where Lisa was already waiting. We headed in and registered. The parking lot was pretty empty honestly. The longer race (50 mile) was already in progress but I was surprised by the low turnout. This is what happens when you have to reschedule and there are other events going on already. Peak 2 Peak was the day before, and I know a lot of people that were there instead. The original date for this was back in February, and from what I heard the course was pretty much liquid at that time. So they made the decision to move it. 

Once we got registered we went and found a spot to set up. Plenty of options. Eventually Tom and Heather got there and we were watching the end of the 50 miler. This event is a four person relay. There are all men, all women, and coed teams. The lap is only around .5 miles, so the people were flying in and out of the exchange area like crazy. It would get quiet for a minute, then zoom....a person would go through and swap out to their next rider. We tried to develop a strategy by watching the longer distances.

After the 50 mile race it was time for us to check out the course. Out of the exchange area there is a right hand turn. This opens to a straight away that starts to trend downhill a bit. Then another right, followed by a small incline before needing to turn left. Then a bit of a downhill straight into the single hill on the course. At speed you can generally roll over the top of it. At the top of the hill there is another right and a downhill that leads to the last right before crossing the start/finish line. If you are doing multiple laps you can stay on course to the right, or go left into the exchange area. And that is the entire course. 

It was time to start. Our order was Lisa, Heather, Me, and Tom. They did a rolling start with a atv and it was off to the races. The front guys came through so fast that I almost missed them. They were trucking. Lisa ended up doing 4 laps to start. When she came in her lungs were screaming at her. Heather did her two and then it was my turn. I took off as hard as I could. Short course, all out right? I planned on doing 3 laps, but when I came into the exchange area I flagged Tom that 2 would be enough. I held a solid average for those two laps as far as I know. Then it was time to wait. Tom did his planned two and Lisa headed out again. Then Heather, and it was my turn again. I took off and legs felt awful. Starting and stopping isnt great for me. I still did my 2 laps and Tom headed out again.

Just that quick we were already at 18 laps out of the 50 we needed. The laps ticked away and then the leaders were only 10 away. Then they were 5 away. We did what we could to keep up. On my third set I left the pits with another guy. I ended up passing him and another person on my second lap in that set. 

First place was in. Then Second place. I took off for what would be my last set. On my second lap I heard the announcer say that "COED IS FINISHED".....ugh. I just eased up and coasted into the finish area. This race is unique in that when the top 3 seeds of each division are finished, they pull the remaining people off course. This gives the remaining people less obstacles I guess.

 

We took 5th place....out of 5. HA. We did have fun, and we learned a lot about how we will approach this event if we ever do it again. Single laps....as hard as you can. Pretty simple. We did the best we could for a group of people that haven't ridden much since June....let alone at race pace. It was a good time for sure. Not sure how I would feel about it when the temps are below freezing and there is snow. But, we shall see if we ever try again.

Overall, I felt decent doing what equates to intervals. I know I can ride hard for half a mile at least. lol. The longer into the event we went the better everyone seemed to feel. So next time we will have a plan of attack and will see what happens. This did do something else though......it reminded me that I really missed racing. Lisa mentioned it too, that she needed something to light the fire again. I am now looking ahead to Barry Roubaix and what that will look like. I should be lighter and in better shape than I am right now. 

Overall, thanks to my team (The Frosted Funky Bunch) for a good day on the bike. 

A stark reminder....

This past Saturday I headed to Kal-Haven for a base building ride. I am getting there, and I want to continue to build every week. Funny as it sounds, I am racing Sunday. So I want to have some semblance of fitness.

 The race you ask.....is the Frosted Fat Tired that got rescheduled due to poor weather. It is a 4 person relay race, and the course is short. So I should be ok. All of us intend to just have fun and are mainly going to hang out. This is what happens when the wheels come off for everyone. I had 2 surgeries this year, Lisa hasn't ridden much since LJ100, and Tom took a hiatus after Coast 2 Coast....so....it will be a fun day of riding with friends. Anything more will be a bonus. 

Last Saturday I drug myself out of bed and headed out. I really didn't feel like getting out of bed, it was just a long week. I did anyway, knowing people were going to be meeting me for a ride. I had some oatmeal and headed out. It was a fairly quiet drive to Kalamazoo. When I pulled into the lot I could see a lot of cars and people mulling around. The people I didn't see...were the ones I thought were coming riding. I didn't communicate very well through the week and made assumptions that people were coming, but alas.....this was to be a solo ride. As I was getting ready a large group of people were warming up and seemingly preparing for a run. Good to see people out and active.

Once I was geared up I started down the trail. Mind wandering but still somehow focused. Have you ever been driving and realized that you were sort of checked out for around 20 minutes....and you have no idea how you got where you are without inflicting some sort of damage? Yeah, kind of like that. I was just thankful to be out and pedaling. I was calling out my passes to the walkers or runners. Most would move, some would ignore, and others still would just not care that I was there. Overall the people were friendly. 

At one point around 7.5 miles in I could see a couple walking. What I didn't see was their dog off-leash about 50 yards ahead of them. I called out "on your left" and they moved over, immediately calling their dog. He whipped around and started hauling ass back towards them. I heard the owner yell "SIT!" and he stopped dead in his track and sat as I was passing him. Good boy! Still....kind of shocked to see a dog that far away from the owners. As I continued on I passed a lady and her dog coming towards me. She stopped and grabbed her k-9 by the collar. I realized that this pooch was off-leash as well. I do understand, but with people around it seems like these people should have had their dogs leashed up. Thankfully no mishaps. 

I continued on and realized that average speed was a bit higher than the previous week. Didn't feel like a tailwind, but more on that later. I continued on and reached the 10 mile mark, where I turned back on my previous ride. I was tempting fate a bit, and kept going out towards Gobles. Eventually the trees opened up and I arrived at the M-40 crossing. I was feeling pretty good overall. I also had calories in my bottle. This was my initial test of my Hammer nutrition to see how my new stomach would handle it. I was feeling just fine. At this point I was 13 miles in.

I started back towards Kalamazoo and was surprised to feel a headwind. It made sense when I looked at my average speed. I was much faster than the previous ride, and I went further. However, I didn't feel like I was pushing the pace. I just rode a comfortable speed and it was faster. That is good news. The headwind wasn't terrible, and I actually only felt it a few places where the trees would open up. I cannot express how thankful I am that it didn't last the entire way back to 10th street. 

You can see from the laps above the difference though. I definitely worked harder coming back than I did going out. The main reason for the slower speed is the small amount of climbing and the cumulative effects of the ride. My endurance is being stressed to get this distance, so holding any sort of speed is a good sign for me. 

I was about 5 miles from the end when I got a very stark reminder about things. Well, things were put into perspective and I had to fight off some thoughts. I had been passing people and calling out "on your left" for over 20 miles. Nobody had passed me to this point. But I heard a quiet "on your left" from an approaching rider. As he passed I nodded and noticed something. He was a big dude. I mean, I am a pretty hefty guy, and he was much bigger than me. Yet, he left me behind like it was nothing. I have respect for this dude, out here killing on on a Saturday afternoon. But....negative thoughts immediately started to creep in. 

They looked a lot like this:

damn, that guy is bigger than me and he just left me behind!

all this weight I have lost...and still getting smoked by bigger dudes....what will happen in a race against lighter guys? 

why....why do I continue to do this to myself if I am not getting any faster....

and so on....

But, those thoughts didn't last very long. The mental side is a part that I am working on just as much as the physical. So I was ready to combat those ill-advised thoughts. Yes I still had them, but I was able to fight them off. Instead I reminded myself that I am 7 weeks out from major surgery. That I have barely ridden in 2024. That I am doing good on this ride and to keep moving forward. That guy probably has been riding all year. I will reach my goal eventually, and then I will see where I stack up. Doesn't even matter where I stack up, my biggest fight will always be me versus me. I had to remind myself that I am doing what I can, and that this surgery wasn't a magic bullet that would make me drop 100 pounds overnight, I still have work to do. I am doing good, and just need to continue to do good. Put those negative thoughts down, and don't carry them anymore.....they only hold you down. 

I kept spinning and was keeping that big guy in sight for a bit. Eventually I didn't see him anymore, but it was a win to stay within viewing distance for a few miles. I reached the part of the ride that I dislike the most. Its a low grade hill that feels like it will never end. Legs start to beg for mercy and then you can see a stop sign that indicates the last crossing before the trailhead. but it is a long way off still, and you just have to grind away. Finally it eases up and is a nice roll to the finish. I hit my goal of 26 miles with no mishaps. No bonking, no chipmunks, and no worries. 

Glad to be done I looked at my average speed and was pleased with what I saw. With minimal miles and a hefty mass, I will take everything I can right now. When I looked back at my 'matched rides' on Strava it gave me more encouragement. I was almost as fast as my fasted matched ride nearly 4 years ago. I can't complain about that at all.

I will tell you this though.....legs HURT on Sunday and still a bit today. All I can do is recover, push fluids, and get back at it again. I am learning my limits. I am also learning what my recovery looks like in the aftermath of surgery. I am getting closer to my goals every day. Learning every day. Striving to do better everyday. There will be bad days. There will be hiccups. But all I can do is....

Keep moving forward.

A visit to Luton Park

 I had some follow up appointments in Grand Rapids last Friday, so I threw my bike on car. I figured I would head to Luton since I was in the neighborhood, and didn't feel like working. My appointments were done around 11:30 so I headed a bit further north to Rockford.

When I arrived I was honestly shocked at the number of cars in the parking lot. For it being a week day around noon, it was fairly busy. I geared up and headed out.

This trail is so well used that its like a highway through the woods. The good news is that it isn't super wide, just well worn in. You can see the start of fall for sure, with all the leaves. 

I rode through each section of the Yellow, orange, black, red, and green. Each of these sections is just a little different. The yellow has a few sweeping drops. The orange gets a bit rocky and offers some pine needle bed surfaces. It goes from a gravely sound to very quiet when you transition between the surfaces. 

The section above is towards the end of the Black loop. It has to be my favorite part of the trail. I actually rode through the first time around, then stopped for the pic. The interesting part of this trail is that each of the loops is a spur off of the Blue loop. This makes is easier to bail out if you need to. The black crosses the blue here, and then circles around. You end up riding the blue through this intersection a few minutes later. Yes, the trails cross...and yes they are marked very well that there is potential danger. I have never had any issues here. I think in all the times I have ridden Luton I have only seen 1 rider coming down the hill. 

After riding all of the loops I was short of 10 miles. I headed back out to ride the Blue loop again. I knew I didn't have the endurance for every loop, but wanted a double digit ride. As I was riding towards the yellow spur my mind started to wander to five years ago. It was in this spot that I realized I was having some major breathing issues. 10 days later I was in the hospital with a saddle pulmonary embolism. Nearly died. Now I was here again riding and enjoying the day. Literally, thankful to be alive. It has been a long time since that day.

Luton is a great trail. I wasn't fast, but it was great to be out and riding such a fun trail. There isn't anything difficult about the trail, and it was in great shape. If you are ever in the Rockford area I highly recommend coming here for a ride. And while you are this close, swing to Merrill as well. Its just down the road and offers another system of trails that I love. Heck, its worth a trip to go there and ride. Lots of trails within 15 minutes of each. Canonsburg is just down the road. Plenty of after ride options from breweries to regular fast food. 

I am planning to get out this weekend again, and just trying to decide where I want to go. I am not ready for the Dragon yet, but its surely on my list. I will avoid Yankee for now. So maybe Merrill, Mosquito Creek, Fort Custer, Meyer-Broadway, or even something else. Just want to get out and get more trail miles before the snow flies. 

Keep moving forward friends. 

Operation Phoenix Week 6

 6 Weeks can change a lot of things......

One thing that hasn't changed is the level of support that I am getting. Everyone is encouraging me and pushing me to reach my goal. Christine is proud of me and is my biggest cheer leader. Her support alone through all of this I will be continually grateful for. I am thankful for all of my friends and the support they send as well. You have no idea how much it helps.

Six weeks ago I was nervous about what was happening. Then I was regretting my decision. Literally was wishing I had not made this decision. I was in pain, I was struggling. After getting some fluids it was better, but I was still mentally struggling with the decision.

Four weeks ago I was able to eat smooth foods. Soup, cottage cheese, applesauce, and a pureed combo of chicken and veggies was my diet. These weeks went by quicker than I imagined they would, but I had good days and bad days. 

About three weeks ago I was so irritated with humanity that I felt unsafe to be in public. I literally felt like I could hurt someone. Unreal what food detox can do to you.

A week ago was better, knowing that the end of the baby food was coming. I mustered through, and I made it to my six week follow up. I had three appointments on Friday. Follow up with Physicians Assistant, a meeting with the nutritionist, and the last one with the Sport physiologist. Here is how each of them went. 

Nutritionist

The food was first on the list. A group of 4 of us were called into a conference room and we found our seats. The Dietician started by having us introduce ourselves and then asking us how things were going. Of the four of us.....most were doing pretty good overall. One was still having a hard time getting protein. One was ready for tacos. Another was tired of pinto beans. I was just tired of smooth foods in general. I did a decent job of mixing things up so I didn't get tired of anything. Just the smooth foods...ugh...I want to EAT something. Not just eat...but chew specifically. We got a handout and had some further instructions on the rest of our diet. Still no caffeine. No breads or pastas. But really, anything else is on the table. Clearly this has to be healthy choices. We can't swing to McDonalds and get fries on the way home from this meeting. Healthy options, and I am more than ready. I don't feel like I will struggle too much, just have to stay away from junk. We have plenty of healthy options in the house. A range from Greek yogurt to almonds, to hummus can be added to the chicken and whatever other protein I can eat. Just keep the sugar low and stay away from high carbs. Limit the starches. Basic stuff....that I have always struggled to follow in the past....but this time is different. 

Physicians Assistant

I will skip ahead to this appointment, saving the sports physiologist for last. I got called back and right away they walked me to the scale. I stepped on and was happy with the result. Around 28 pounds down since surgery. Not bad clip of 4.7 pounds a week. She asked how things were going and then went into what I should expect. She said that adding in food will accelerate the weight loss, which was kind of interesting to me. How can I eat more and lose more....this seems counterintuitive. The explanation was that food is fuel. For the body to burn fat, it needs fuel. Makes sense I guess. So I am curious to see how the next few months go. She said at this point my weight loss is well ahead of the curve. This is also shocking to me, because I initially had a rapid loss followed by a small gain and then small losses. So to be ahead of the curve at this point is exciting to me. I know that a 2 pound a week loss is generally considered healthy. I asked her if that is what I should expect to see. Her response caught me off guard a bit. She said "you should expect to see and average more than that per week now that you are on real food again". So.....as odd as it sounds.....these next 2 months will see more rapid loss than my first month. I am down with that. So stay tuned.

Sports Physiologist

I hear "Sean!" followed by a "there you are!" from Jeff. He is an avid cyclist and was looking forward to our appointment, as was I. He goes says "I knew it was you....USA cycling jacket, Canyon hat, and a gravel race shirt...it had to be you". lol. Funny. I was looking forward to picking his brain and he was looking forward to hearing about my story. I told him about my Lumberjack experiences and how there was failure last year, when I was still 285 pounds. He was impressed at what I have achieved at my mass and gave me a lot of insight on moving forward. I explained that I have been doing the weights three days a week, because I don't want to lose any muscle. He loved that, and went into how he knows I am strong...I have just been hauling a lot of mass. So we don't want to lose the muscle, we want to maintain. We don't even really need to build any more. If I can keep my current muscle, my watts per kilogram will steadily climb. Same engine, lighter body. Think about a race car, they strip away the extra weight and only need to tune the engines. This is what we will do. Drop the weight, keep the muscle....and things will change for the better. He gave me a few exercises to do and then gave me is contact info. He wants me keep him informed of my progress. Pretty exciting to have so many people in my corner!

So overall, it was a good day at the doctors. Knowing I would be in GR, I brought Mudhorn with me and headed to Luton Park. It was a gorgeous day, and I headed out for a lap or 2. I ended up with just over 10 miles. I did all of the outer loops and then the inner loop to get my mileage. Mountain biking really takes the energy out of me, so I figured a safe 10 instead of bonking out in one of the trails. I took Saturday off. Tom and I headed to Kal-Haven on Sunday morning for another ride. This time my goal was 20 miles at whatever pace I could hold. Again, another great day. We rode out from 10th street and when we hit the 10 mile mark we turned back. Pace was solid for me and I was feeling pretty good. Towards the end, where the trail kicks up from the river I started to feel it. I pushed my limit and now I know its about 20 miles. Still, good weekend on the bike.

Here are my current metrics (as of today). 

Weight loss since surgery: 29.2 pounds

Weight to go for Ultimate Goal: 77.4

Strava Fitness Level: 15

When I started riding again, my fitness level was a literal 1. Now its up to 15 in just a few weeks. I will continue to ride and tone and that will climb even higher. 

Stick with me friends, the journey isn't even close to being over. I have taken the reigns of my life back. 

Keep moving forward. 

Operation Phoenix Week 5

Hard to believe I am into my 6th week post-op. Here we go....

While I experienced dramatic weight loss in the first 3 weeks, that has leveled out. I really couldn't expect to continue to loose weight at a clip of 6 or 7 pounds a week. As awesome as that was early on, it simply isn't a healthy thing for my body. Instead, a reasonable loss is anywhere from one to three pounds a week. If I can average two pounds a week moving forward, I will reach my goal....eventually. End goal is just to keep the scales moving in the right direction. Big or small losses, if I am trending toward my goal I will be happy. 

Mentally, I am doing pretty good overall. I have had some moments where I really struggled to remember why I did this in the first place. Moments where I wanted to swing into the gas station and buy garbage that I shouldn't. Moments still where I just wanted a salad. In reality, I just want to eat what I would classify as "normal". I want to be able to eat real food when it is time for me to eat. I am pretty tired of 'smooth' foods at this point. This is my last week, thankfully....but I understand why babies spit that shit out half the time. While some of it tastes good, I just want to chew. lol. Sounds funny, but that is how I feel. Give me a hard boiled egg, and let me chew it up. Give me a small salad. Give me a bite of steak. LET ME CHEW DAMMIT. 

Overall, feeling pretty good. I do notice that I get tired super fast. This is another side effect I am not fond of. While I have been able to do some longer rides, I pay the price for them. As an example, two weekends ago I did an easy 10 mile ride on Kal-Haven. I was asleep at 8pm that night. The next two days I was just feeling worn out. So I notice that recovery takes longer and I feel more fatigued. I do understand that this is normal, but I don't like it. I keep moving, try to fight through it. But my body needs rest. I am not exactly sure what my calorie intake is....but I know its super low compared to where it needs to be. On Friday I move back to 'normal' diet, and I will be able to track easier. Making a puree with chicken, broccoli, and cream of chicken soup....then eating a small portion at a time...makes is very hard. Having a small chicken breast and a measured portion of veggies.....much easier. I still won't be able to eat a lot, but I just believe it will be easier to keep track of everything. 

I did do a few outside rides this past weekend. First, I rode the Custer's Last Stand course and made sure it was all marked. It was raining when I left home, so I opted for Albert instead of my new bike. So, I hauled a 35 plus pound fat bike around Custer for 9 miles. Overall it was a good ride with a lot of stops and starts in the first half. I can say with absolute certainty that I lack climbing power. I made all but 1 of the climbs (which isn't hard at Custer) but did have to walk one. Legs were just blah at that moment and I just walked a bit. I cleared the rest, so that was a positive sign for me. I tried to push as hard as I could, but it just isn't there yet. It did feel good to be out, enjoying the sport I love. As the race was starting I started to wonder if maybe anyone was signed up for Beginner Clyde or Fatbike. I figured maybe I could race and get an award for my efforts, if nobody else was there. After pondering that a bit, I knew it was a bad idea. I struggled at the end of the 9 miles....and would have really struggled with another full lap. I headed home instead, and took a nap in the afternoon.

Sunday, I got up and headed to Kal-Haven again. Planning on a 15 mile ride with friends, I loaded up the MTB and headed out. Mountain bike, because I need new bar tape for the gravel bike. So the Mudhorn was weapon of choice. People that were coming started dropping like flies on my drive down. Everyone had stuff to do, so I ended up riding alone. I did a short out and back to ensure nobody else was coming, then headed down the main trail. Being downhill, the first few miles are easy. Eventually I reached the 7.5 mile mark and turned around. To my surprise, I felt a wind in my face. Apparently I had a tailwind that first segment as well. Well, that wasn't going to help on the way back. Overall it didn't bother me much, and I just plugged away. Focusing on cadence and keeping my heart rate under control. At one of the last road crossings I could hear a car coming. Then a BLARING horn as they approached the intersection. I was kind of shocked that they were honking at me, because I was barely moving and not even to the road yet. lol. I mean, thanks for the heads up dude.....but that was un-necessary. This is where the rail trail turns uphill. Its a grind for sure, even with it not being steep. Its just a churn back up to 10th street. I made it, and was glad to be done. Finishing with around 17 miles, that is my longest ride in forever. Like....longest ride since the end of March. Yikes. When I got home I showered, and napped. lol. 

I am learning my limits here, and pushing them a bit. I am guessing that 20 is going to be major limit for a while. I head to doc on Friday. I hope to pick the brain of the physiologist to see what I can do for energy right now. I need to learn the right foods to eat and how to push my limits without doing damage. Last thing I want or need is a setback. I just want to build my endurance and keep losing weight. So I know its a balance, and more to learn.

Weight loss since starting program: 35.2

Weight loss since surgery: 27.0

Sometimes the Phoenix doesn't rise from the ashes as fast as we would like, but it is still rising.

Operation Phoenix Week 4

 Here we go with week 4 recap....    

4 weeks already? Damn. That whole "time flies" thing is legit. And the fact that its been 5 weeks since my surgery is just bananas.

So where do I start? Well, I got back on track by dropping just over 2 pounds last week. That puts me at 26 down since surgery. It has slowed down some because of the food increase, but that is to be expected. Add in that I was only on the bike 2x and that didn't help.

Not really sure why, but just wasn't feeling it last week. 2 rides.....not enough. I have been doing my small weight workout three times a week, so movement has still been happening. The lack of caloric intake does play a factor here. I feel fatigued pretty easy, which is a sucky side effect. I just want to go do long rides, and my body is like....hahahahaha. 

I did get out for a Nucleus ride on Saturday with a small group. Dan, Dave, Chris, and Lisa joined me at Kal-Haven for an easy 10 miles. I just kind of cruised and kept my heart rate low. This was just to get out and ride, see how the body handled it. It was a quick jaunt from Gobles to Bloomingdale and back. Nothing terrible, all flat rail trail. I felt pretty good overall. With about half a mile to go on the way back Lisa and I pushed the pace a bit. I learned pretty quickly that I can only push the pace for a minute before my body doesn't like it. Still, felt good to go faster for a short stretch.

Always good to ride with friends. Dave was sharing a story, and he thanked us for being part of his riding group. He said "Doctor told me to thank you guys for saving my life".  That really sunk in. Because of his riding, he was stronger and able to make it through a terrible event. Sure we all ride on our own, but these groups make the rides more enjoyable. A group gives us accountability. A group gives us camaraderie. We don't fully know the power of a group ride, I just know they are important. So lets keep having them! 

Not really much more to report here. Just making sure I am paying attention to how much I am eating. I am learning where my limits are, and how my body feels when I am actually full. Eating very slow is important. If I eat a bit fast I get a feeling of wanting to puke. It comes on VERY fast. I didn't even think I was eating fast one day last week, and all of a sudden I was like "uh oh" and was on the verge of hurling up what I ate. Thankfully that feeling went away and I was ok, but it was a reminder of my situation. 

If I get the small amount of food, and I eat slowly I don't have any issues. I am however getting tired of the baby food consistency. Only a week to go on that, and then the learning begins again. I will have to learn what foods I can handle, and not over do it. I am not talking about putting away a little debbie zebra cake, I am just referring to the amount of food in each sitting. And what types of foods will cause more issues than others. 

Overall, feeling pretty good. Stress is still high....but I am managing. Lots of potential life changes coming and some of them will be a massive benefit to those stress levels. Only time will tell.

I will be doing my first MTB ride this Saturday (weather permitting). That should be an interesting experiment to see how I feel riding harder terrain than the trainer or a rail trail. 

Otherwise......keep moving forward!