If a model train comes off the tracks....you don't throw it away. You pick it up, see if there is any damage, and put it back on the tracks. Seems simple enough.
I am the train....and while sometimes I am a trainwreck.....I can still get back on track. You get it....
Anyway, here is my update on how things are going on my journey to losing 100 pounds. As of this morning I am down 86 pounds, leaving just 14 pounds to reach the century.
Last week I had my follow up appointment with my nutritionist and behavioralist. These appointments came at precisely the right time for me. I have been struggling with things. Talking through them with the specialists was very helpful.
Nutritionally, I am doing what I need to do. However, I have been 'grazing' and adding in extra calories that have stalled my weight loss. Simple enough. Just eat what you are supposed to right? Well, I did just that the remainder of the week and thru the weekend. The result.....I feel better and I am actually less hungry than when I was eating too much. Wild.
The bad habits that got me to 309 pounds are still part of my mental makeup. While I am aware of those negative habits, I also have not done a lot to fight them off. Talking with the counselor I was able to identify the habits and was reminded that it won't get easier. However, being aware is a big part of the battle. Stopping those habits is important. But, knowing that you can have one bad day and bounce back is also helpful. I just can't have a bad day and then say 'fuck it' and let those bad days pile up on each other....or I will end up back at 300 pounds. I had the self awareness to know that I was self sabotaging myself....and that I don't want to continue to do that.
After these brief conversations I left the office feeling recharged. My sense of purpose renewed so to speak. I took that feeling into the rest of the week and managed a nearly 3 pound weight loss. Amazing what happens when I don't eat junk or pile in calories that I just don't need. My mood is better. I feel better. I am better.
I know I will have hard days. I know it won't be easy. I know some days the wheels will come off. All I can do is try to limit those days. If the wheels do come off, put them back on the next day. Don't let the days add up and stall my progress again.
With my last race coming in less than 2 weeks I will have the focus to stay away from the junk. I would love to be a few pounds lighter going into that race and end the season with a high finish. 5 pounds lighter than now would awesome. But I am just over 2 pounds away from teens.....and that number can actually be reached this week.
Just need to keep Striving.
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